CONTROL

So i been on it for the last week . Just working on the most important person in the world ME. I’ve been worrying about what would become of me. Just sitting back taking it all in now and it seems to me the hardest person to please is myself. I mean i tried every thing to keep me in a place of true peace. But nothing has been seeming to work so i took some time and began working on me. After trying to be everything to everybody I just stopped. Stop trying to fit into their world.That clearly was to complicated for me to live in. I started breathing for me again. I stopped holding my breath and words on what would make them most comfortable and i started to live. I MUST admit it hurt and half the people i lost (even though they deserved to go and find someone they could control.) It hurt to want so badly to be apart of that paradigm. Amazingly enough I can say that today i didn’t cry. I realized that WRONG is all how you see it. Ernest Holmes the writer of The “Science Of Mind” said- Evil is not a person , place or thing but it is an experience we all have because of our divine individuality. Because we CAN have what ever we can take . I realized that meant that we can expect an experience that is logical to our thoughts and actions. So as far as control go we as people try to control each other in order to feel like we are part the whole when in actuality by controlling we bring a greater dis -harmony between each other. i.e. if we allow each other to keep our own thoughts and values Our own thoughts and values we wouldn’t find ourselves in the position of splitting up due to disagreements and we wouldn’t find so many people filling absent from the whole. We would also be able to start building on what most unites us. Another good friend of mine said quite frequently ACCEPTANCE not EXPECTATION. Because in acceptance everyone is happy, joyous, and free. but in Expectation everyone is in bondage. Bond by the judgment and the opinions of another man Approval Scale . Proof of how backward we are we the people take one men life from him by allowing another men to use his own opinion of judgment against a men and protect his decision behind other men opinions of what CIVIL & LAWFUL CRAZY but that’s how this WORLD runs. Another example for me as an artist is changing Your art based on what is being viewed as BEST.NOW according to what standard do we prosecute ART??? Now that i realize that I’m becoming more comfortable with my self, and more accepting of other people who have not yet to learn that accepting is easier then trying to control. FREEDOM is truly Free . Bondage is a penance resulting from learning lesson from the evil experience of ignorance.